Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Episode #42: The Bridge (3' 21")

Paul was furious with the guys in casting for giving me
pictures of John.

Paul said "I don't give a damn whose
brother he is. Respect the model's privacy. That comes
before anything else."

They got a hell of a lecture.


Friday, October 23, 2009

Episode #41: ... (3' 05")

I guess I sort of thought this might be coming. Maybe
I'm surprised it took this long.


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Picture of me

Here's a picture of me that Elliott Wilder took the other day. I was standing in
for a photo model who didn't show up, doing Paul a favor.

Three guys ended up taking my picture. Paul, Elliott and Nick.

Given that I'd just posted an episode with photos that Paul and I take,
I thought it was only fair that I post one that got taken of me.

It was strange being on the other side of the camera. I have
to admit I didn't especially like it.

Makes me appreciate what it's like!


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Episode #40: Our Nude Photos (1' 56")

Paul Morris loves taking photos of nude men. He'll
often hire men to pose nude, usually at the end
of the day.

Lately he's been inviting me to join him in these
photo sessions. I really enjoy them. And I think
my photos of men are very different from
his photos of men.


Wednesday, October 7, 2009

From My Mail Box

I'm taking a break this week from making a new episode. There'll be a new
one next week, though.

It turns out that I'm getting a lot of email. A lot of it is great, from guys who
like or support what I'm up to (or at least are kind of intrigued).

But there're also quite a few guys who aren't exactly fans. Here's one

Dear Sir,

The video work you do, as vapidly uninspired as it is (and as badly shot) is nevertheless relatively sexy in the sole respect that as UK TV host Russell Harty once said “ we can’t all see each other in the act of sex, so thank goodness for pornography”.

By trying to identify with Charlie Starkweather, you come across as a bloated, eyeliner-wearing, Big Mac-eating Goth, who, after being bullied by guys in gym class for being a chubby loser, decides to be all “dark” and “punk” and in essence , desperately trying to be lugubrious.

You are trying too hard and it makes you laughable.

Murder is actually not entertainment and there is genuinely nothing very “sexy” about it. I should know. I come from a long line of killers.....

My advice for you is to grow up and stop imagining yourself to be a “creature of the night”, fascinated by murder and all that the mystery of uninvited death explores....

Perhaps you need to take up a proper hobby. Run around fields and fill your lungs with air. Buy a hamster. Do some arts and crafts. Indeed anything but the faux “dark” “art” you involve yourself with.....

Like a 13 year old girl who buys a henna tattoo and who thinks herself the Queen of the Night, you are nothing but a plumber’s idea of Cleopatra.... get yourself a life.....

[name removed] M.A (Hons), M.A P.G Dip. B Sc, L Lb


I honestly have no idea how to respond to letters like this. Parts of it lost me
entirely (I'm not sure what "a plumber's idea of Cleopatra" means, exactly).
I'm impressed that the writer knew about Charlie Starkweather (a lot of guys
my age don't know who that is.)

Anyway, it was a friend back at GISH (Grand Island Senior High, where I went to school)
who called me that. I never actually called myself "Charlie Starkweather with a camera".

Well, maybe it's just a Nebraska thing.

Whatever the case, I'm happy that a guy with so many degrees took the time
to write to me.

New episode next week.

Thanks to everybody!