Hi,
Sorry it's taken me so long to put up a new episode. This one has taken me a while to process. I've also decided to get away from San Francisco for a while, so I'm going on the road. I'm not exactly sure where I'll end up, but I'm going to try and post episodes more frequently.
Thanks for watching,
Sully
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Every week I try to post a new video episode of my documentary about the San Francisco gay porn company Treasure Island Media. I'm a 25-year-old Nebraska guy who moved to San Francisco a year or so ago. I'm learning about the world.
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ReplyDeleteCareful "on the road", whatever that means to you. The road can be a brilliant teacher, an erotic charge, a method for sweeping away accumulated mental plaque. Keep your eyes open and watch how the sunsets change.
ReplyDeletejust watched it dude. jesus christ.
ReplyDeletemy ex-BF also did/does porn and has the same story as your brother, he is not alone, but the layers of damage that's been done...it's really tragic. how does all this make you feel about your family?
Thanks. I waited a lot for the new episode. It's very interesting. Have a nice trip on the road.
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I'll try to be with you "on your road".
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Incredible.
ReplyDeleteI have no words, very powerful.
WOW indeed! I broke down in tears when I saw this. I love you both.
ReplyDeleteI can't help but wonder how you feel now about Paul and TIM. The scene with John and Brad McGuire from "Breeding Season 2", aptly named "Used and abused" by Paul was hard enough to watch even before seeing this episode. Now it almost feels like a reenactment of the rape John experienced at the hands of his own father. How sad that John would rather be punched in the face than kissed by "faggots".
Yes, John consented to the scene and to this interview but he has consented to a lot of things that other less damaged individuals might not have. I can't help but feel that he is being exploited by Paul. Hopefully, with the help of a good therapist or a good man or both, John will eventually get his life together. But these movies and even this interview will follow him for the rest of his life.
I don't know if there is a statue of limitations on child molestation where you lived or how long ago this happened (I have a feeling it started before John was "17 or 18") but maybe you should be showing this to the police. There can be no doubt about the harmful effects this has had on John's life.
I love the fact you are from G.I. NE.
ReplyDeleteI grew up in NE as well and currently in in the big O. Wondering if you ever back it back to your home state?
# Claude : do not feel Ryan nor John are being used by Paul Morris. They chose being this public themselves and I admire them for that. I wish I had been this "out" myself when I was younger. Also remember John saying in an episode that he hated the rape or 'initiation' experience when it happened but the memory of it turned him on nowadays. I also have always been looking for sex with adult guys when I was a minor and don't think that necessairily turns you into a twisted person. I'm quite happy with my life choices (where they are choices) and also not at all into minors myself.
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ReplyDeleteI also hate kissing but love a fuck
would you mind letting us know where both the music and the short insert of the two statue like characters (clip shown right after the discussion regarding your parents dismissal of John) are taken from?
ReplyDeleteHeh, I am originally from just north of you in SD, moved away many years ago. Love your stuff, don't mind going back for the occasional visit but my favourite view of the place is the rear-view mirror of my car. Wherever you are, you are in my thoughts alot....ex-Midwesterner...
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ReplyDeleteThis piece is so poignant that I welled in tears watching it. I couldn't help but feeling all the underlying emotions that run through your and your brother's mind and soul both when John was telling the story and when you were watching it.
Underneath it all, I feel that you both are yearning to find love and be loved in a true and real sense. It's deeply heartbreaking. I pray for you and John to find love and happiness that you both deserve.
You both have truly good heart and soul. Keep the soul searching. Learning to find your true self is the greatest discovery and it takes arduous and awfully painful process to overcome along the way. I know this from experience.
Once you find yourself and the meaning of your life, it will set you free.. you'll be healed. It will lead you to find what you've been searching for. You have all the strength to find it.
All the best and much love for you both - Henry/Eastern Hemisphere.
Jesus fucking christ, i'm at a loss for words.
ReplyDeletewould like to know more... hope everything's fine anyway.
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