Episode #45: The Swimmer (1' 55")

First off, thanks to everyone who left the amazing notes and
sent me some really wonderful emails. They meant a lot
to me and I'm very grateful.


It's been a rough couple of weeks. I decided to take this week
off. I'd had enough of porn, of sex, of family.

I'm alone for the week until I go back to work on Monday. I've
been wandering around San Francisco, keeping to myself.

I went to City Lights Books. The guy behind the counter
told me to buy a book of short stories by John Cheever.

I'm not sure why, but the story that hit me was 'The Swimmer'.
If you want to read it, here's where you can find the whole thing
online. You could probably read it in 15 minutes.

http://shortstoryclassics.50megs.com/cheeverswimmer.html

I hope this episode isn't too strange. I needed a break
from everything.

Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com

Episode #44: "More important things" (5' 48")

I watched the video Paul made, an interview
with John.

Paul says that John wanted me to see it all.

I decided to shoot the scene. I wanted the
chance to see him, even if he wouldn't see me.

Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com

Episode #43: Key West (3' 25")

This week has been intense. I'm dealing with it
all and decided to do it in two episodes.

Here's the first.

Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com

Episode #42: The Bridge (3' 21")

Paul was furious with the guys in casting for giving me
pictures of John.

Paul said "I don't give a damn whose
brother he is. Respect the model's privacy. That comes
before anything else."

They got a hell of a lecture.


Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com

Episode #41: ... (3' 05")

I guess I sort of thought this might be coming. Maybe
I'm surprised it took this long.

Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com

Picture of me

Here's a picture of me that Elliott Wilder took the other day. I was standing in
for a photo model who didn't show up, doing Paul a favor.

Three guys ended up taking my picture. Paul, Elliott and Nick.

Given that I'd just posted an episode with photos that Paul and I take,
I thought it was only fair that I post one that got taken of me.

It was strange being on the other side of the camera. I have
to admit I didn't especially like it.

Makes me appreciate what it's like!

Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com

Episode #40: Our Nude Photos (1' 56")

Paul Morris loves taking photos of nude men. He'll
often hire men to pose nude, usually at the end
of the day.

Lately he's been inviting me to join him in these
photo sessions. I really enjoy them. And I think
my photos of men are very different from
his photos of men.

Sully

ryansullivanid@gmail.com